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No comments on It Looks Like a Piece of Heaven and I Live Here. Not many people can say they live on an Island that has 4 Seasons to count for the year. But ever since I was a child, I have been drawn to the woods of my Island. I’ve also been drawn to it’s huge Atlantic Ocean as well. But enough Said about that. In my thoughts I’ve been having and to deal with, I have appreciated the thought that life is like a Winters storm, or a tropical force wind, that is not expected, but comes anyway! Good or bad, shit, happens. It was a week of many, many feelings. My love, is not well, as I blogged, earlier. My Dad is in mere, last stages of memory and didn’t know me the other night. And I’m personally struggling to understand, people’s feelings and my own thought process of life and change. It’s thought provoking, isn’t it! But as a woman with Autism, and I have this detailed, experience to come forth in my life. It’s awesome, after I ironed out, a bit of the fine print. But it seems to arrive at the wrong time in my life. Everything I have something good happen, Something bad happens in gallows, to stop it, and poisons my reaction, to do it. My fault, know one else’s, but all the same, it’s shitty, thinking. And then addictions can come into play like history repeating itself, depression, OCD, and that beat, will continue for awhile, to endure. Well, it Could, But It won’t, or I won’t let it happen! I’ll try not to anyway. It’s there, in the midst, to take a walk too, negativity, but I choose differently. I get to choose now, with a new day, a beautiful Fall day, in my small city and my small Island. With the beauty all around us, My Lord, is also hovering around in wait, to do his Devine nature in my life, to join ❤️ thus new Autism world, I’m about to embrace. New Autism world you ask, 🤔, well new diagnosis in Dec 2021, New to me. But, knowing I was differently different all my life, and my understanding of life was always child like, but I was called an old soul. And blunt to boot! But probably being blunt, at the wrong time, mind you, all in the same. Always, made people’s thinking of me, what the Heck is she thinking or what is she all about? It hurt and still hurts when the normal world doesn’t get me and I don’t get you at all. I try so hard, and I resay my words to make sense, but in the end I get yelled at, because I made a mistake and you didn’t understand. And then I over compensate in the apologies, then I make people mad again! Can people just give me a break, and understand my understanding of you and your world is limited at best, and I’m doing the best I can do, to be the best person I can be. This scenario, is why I think Autistic people have such a high rate of suicide. We just try so hard, and studies done throughout the world show, a mere 54 years as a woman with diagnosed Autism, seems to not have a long life capacity, or like I like to say, not a long shelf life. But, In the long roads we travel, or are before us, we can choose somehow to live it. It’s going to be hard and but beautiful, all at the same time. It is a two-way journey or black and white thinking. But today I choose the color I see in the foothills of the picture below, of the ever cascading beauty, of my Island. Today I will love and be loved and I will give myself the permission, to be vulnerable and be accepted. Please try the same for yourself today, everyone! For we, are all, so very special and unique. And for some of us will make a difference, and some of us will decide other, better, things. But choose to be loved today and to live and love your people, as well! Amy L. BAILEY (Author and blogger)

It Looks Like a Piece of Heaven and I Live Here. Not many people can say they live on an Island that has 4 Seasons to count for the year. But ever since I was a child, I have been drawn to the woods of my Island. I’ve also been drawn to it’s huge Atlantic Ocean as well. But enough Said about that. In my thoughts I’ve been having and to deal with, I have appreciated the thought that life is like a Winters storm, or a tropical force wind, that is not expected, but comes anyway! Good or bad, shit, happens. It was a week of many, many feelings. My love, is not well, as I blogged, earlier. My Dad is in mere, last stages of memory and didn’t know me the other night. And I’m personally struggling to understand, people’s feelings and my own thought process of life and change. It’s thought provoking, isn’t it! But as a woman with Autism, and I have this detailed, experience to come forth in my life. It’s awesome, after I ironed out, a bit of the fine print. But it seems to arrive at the wrong time in my life. Everything I have something good happen, Something bad happens in gallows, to stop it, and poisons my reaction, to do it. My fault, know one else’s, but all the same, it’s shitty, thinking. And then addictions can come into play like history repeating itself, depression, OCD, and that beat, will continue for awhile, to endure. Well, it Could, But It won’t, or I won’t let it happen! I’ll try not to anyway. It’s there, in the midst, to take a walk too, negativity, but I choose differently. I get to choose now, with a new day, a beautiful Fall day, in my small city and my small Island. With the beauty all around us, My Lord, is also hovering around in wait, to do his Devine nature in my life, to join ❤️ thus new Autism world, I’m about to embrace. New Autism world you ask, 🤔, well new diagnosis in Dec 2021, New to me. But, knowing I was differently different all my life, and my understanding of life was always child like, but I was called an old soul. And blunt to boot! But probably being blunt, at the wrong time, mind you, all in the same. Always, made people’s thinking of me, what the Heck is she thinking or what is she all about? It hurt and still hurts when the normal world doesn’t get me and I don’t get you at all. I try so hard, and I resay my words to make sense, but in the end I get yelled at, because I made a mistake and you didn’t understand. And then I over compensate in the apologies, then I make people mad again! Can people just give me a break, and understand my understanding of you and your world is limited at best, and I’m doing the best I can do, to be the best person I can be. This scenario, is why I think Autistic people have such a high rate of suicide. We just try so hard, and studies done throughout the world show, a mere 54 years as a woman with diagnosed Autism, seems to not have a long life capacity, or like I like to say, not a long shelf life. But, In the long roads we travel, or are before us, we can choose somehow to live it. It’s going to be hard and but beautiful, all at the same time. It is a two-way journey or black and white thinking. But today I choose the color I see in the foothills of the picture below, of the ever cascading beauty, of my Island. Today I will love and be loved and I will give myself the permission, to be vulnerable and be accepted. Please try the same for yourself today, everyone! For we, are all, so very special and unique. And for some of us will make a difference, and some of us will decide other, better, things. But choose to be loved today and to live and love your people, as well! Amy L. BAILEY (Author and blogger)

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